You know when you do something for the first time and you just realise how far you have to go?

That happened for me today on a livestream – even though it wasn't my first time.

I rewatched it thinking, "Wow. That was rubbish." 

I thought I had livestreams sorted. But it was clunky, awkward and totally unnatural.

Clearly I have a lot of work to do.

I even considered taking it down.

But I didn't. Because I think there's a kind of beauty in being a beginner and allowing yourself to suck.

Accepting not just imperfection, but total imperfection.

I am okay being new. I will get better.

Keep going, self.

Everyone sucks in the beginning.