Burnt out

If there’s one thing I learned today, it’s that I don’t have enough ease and flow in my life. I discovered this when I got a deep headache and took some harsh criticism too personally, and collapsed in bed, barely able to move. I felt absolutely rubbish today all day. Someone actually predicted it a few days ago when I was posting my daily tasks on my Instagram stories. “Where’s the flow?!” she said.

Today I had 6 client calls. SIX. Plus everything else I’ve had planned. Plenty of other work, running, push ups, blogging, meditating, and got up early after going to be late. Was that all a good idea?
Well, no. And I knew that. I chose to ignore it, but I’m BURNT OUT.

But to be honest, anyone who’s been following me could have seen it coming. But I was choosing to ignore it. I didn’t want to admit that a few late nights and early mornings plus a crazy work schedule could do it to me.

So I’ve been journaling how I can still be productive and get things done while being in a state of flow. Just allowing things to be easy. It doesn’t have to be crazy and frantic. I know that. But now I really know that.

Tonight will be an early night. And I’m clearing anything from my to do list tomorrow that isn’t absolutely paramount.

I’m so grateful to be going to Budapest tomorrow evening. I have zero calls booked all weekend, and NOTHING to do except go to be present at conference I’m going to. I can just BE.